Most of you know that I've been contemplating about quitting my job. I've been doing that for over five months already yet, I'm still here. That got me thinking as to why I haven't handed over my resignation letter yet? After much thought I've finally figured it out. It's the fear of being idle.

If I knew I were sure of doing something productive: write songs, new job, put up a business, etc.; I'd quit instantly. Right now I don't think I have anything definite planned hence the second thoughts. I must find something to move on to. That way I can leave this company and not regret anything.

What to do? What to do?

Last Friday, February 25, was a holiday in the Philippines. It was to commemorate the EDSA revolution back in 1986 that brought us change in the government. In my case last Friday was a day to relax, and I enjoyed every minute of it.

I started off finishing my computer game. That took up most of the morning. Being a Jedi is tough work after all. Then I tried my hands at another game. Getting frustrated with that I ended up watching movies of cable. I was surprised at how much I was able to see. Not content with that, I put on Alien vs. Predator. Even though I think it was a waste of time, I enjoyed the fact that I was actually watching.

Scary part about all this is that I'm so liking it. Maybe I can make more time to do all these things again sometime. Quitting my job will free up loads of time. Hmmmm...... That's a thought.

I've noticed that for the past few posts I've been talking more and more about computer games. I'm sure that this bores a bunch of the readers of this blog, and because of that I have decided to save the said readers from more. I have created a new blog that will tackle only computer gaming. I'll leave all my comments and reviews on that site. If you're into gaming, check out "Frank Game Reviews". It's just starting out so please be patient. Thanks.

I'm done being a vampire (see previous post). As much as I enjoyed playing a creature of the night on my computer, nothing will compare to what I'm playing now, a Jedi. Yes I'm back playing computer games at my free time and this time I'm playing "Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic II: The Sith Lords".

As many know, I am a Star Wars nut (Star Woid if you will), so you can imagine how I enjoy being in the shoes of a Jedi. What's cool about this game is that it's a role-playing game. I get to be as good or as evil as I want to be. The outcome of the game changes based on how I behave in the game. All the cool stuff from the movies are there: spaceships, blasters, lightsabers, droids, and of course the force. The story is also better than some of the Star Wars movies and novels.

I'm hooked. I can barely get in a few hours of sleep because I just want to know what happens in the game next. Today I can barely keep my eyes open here at work. Only if I could tap on the Force to give me that extra boost to keep up.

7 Foot Jr. did a taping for Txtube yesterday. For those of you not familiar with the show (I wasn't), it's a GMA-7 broadcast that divides the screen into three areas: a text forum, advertisments/polls, and the video feed. This is aired during midnights.

It was fun to play with these guys again. Admittedly we haven't been the most active band in the world. Our last gig was way back in December for the MTV Music Summit. As you'd guess, we enjoyed our playing and it went of pretty well. We did two songs, one of which is new; Drive Inn and Kahit Sandali. The interview came off to me as sounding scripted, even though it wasn't. The usual "Hi we're 7 Foot Jr.!" thing came off funny too. During one of the takes we ended up laughing so hard because Allan actually said "Sextube" instead of "Txtube" (Freudian slip?).

Our episode will air this Saturday morning at 12:00 A.M.

I've written my resignation letter four times already over the past three months. I'm getting good at it. I just have to hand any of them in and that would complete the intention.

Having written four, I've made them with different "feels". If I want the letter to be hostile, I send in letter number one. Gracious, letter number two. Simple or detailed? I've got letters for that too. Now for timing. When to submit it?

I've geeked out recently and started playing a computer role-playing game called "Vampire Bloodlines: The Masquerade". The setting of the game is a gritty L.A. in which you play a vampire that was newly embraced (the action of afflicting one with the vampiric disease).

Being a role-playing game, you have to decide what clan of Vampires you belong to (it's a long heirarchy with different bloodlines, etc.). Each clan has their own traits and abilities which affect how you react to the environment and vice-versa. You can do this by choosing your traits or the way i did it, by answering a couple of questions that relate to your character.

The questions were mostly "what would you do in this situation?" questions. I answered them as honestly as I could. I wanted a vampire that would closely resemble me (for the exception that I chose to be female, female vampires are just so hot!). Lo and behold! The computer thought I was best as a member of clan Malkavian. Malkavians are, for lack of a better word, insane. They're just plain wacko. They talk, act and dress weird. They hear voices in their head. However they have powerful insight and perception (brought to them by said voices in the head). They make no sense when they speak yet bring much truth.

Am I really like this? The computer didn't lump me in with the suave and sexy clans, or the more animalistic ones. They made me out to be a loon! I can live with that.

My mom called me yesterday to tell me that Mobius, a company I sent my resume to, called up and was asking if I was available for an interview. My mom gave me their phone number and who to talk to so I called. As not wanting to stir anything up at the office I did the call outside. I was speaking to the contact person who said she'd have to look my records up and would call me back. They didn't. I went home wondering what was up?

As I woke up this morning I gave them another ring. This time the person on the other end told me some of the details. Their only open positions were contractual positions. I politely declined saying that I was looking for something more permanent. They just said that they'll get back to me once there's a permanent position available. Bummer.

I thought that was going to get me out of my "makapili" status that I'm in right now. As much as I want to bolt this company, I still have to be practical and not just jump ship because one so happens to pass by. Oh well. Maybe I'll ask one of the Japanese here at the office to introduce me to the art of Zen. It'll give me a little more patience to deal with them.