Right now I'm a little more honest than I normally am. Needless to say, I'm intoxicated. Dangerous to be blogging this way. I'll probably get into trouble. But debate with me all you want right now for by the time I get up, none of this will matter.

I imagine myself connected to so many of my friends through wires or bridges. These wires pass all the love, concern or even just attention. However there are instances where these wires are just short circuited or even burned, severing all feeling from one point to another. I have felt that towards different people lately; people I have valued, or even worshiped.

I used to be the sensitive type. You felt bad, I was the shoulder to cry on. Something wrong, tell me and I'll see what I can do. Often times I realized that I was taken for granted. So why should I care? Drastic turn around it may be, but I could only take so much.

These days these connections aren't as many as they used to be. Many have shrunk; many have fizzled. Many have disappeared all together. You forget me, I forget you. That's how I am now. Yet there are connections that have turned from wires to pipes. I will concentrate on those that have grown. They are the ones that really matter. If they suddenly burn, just cut it off. I won't hesitate, and I won't regret.

TITLE: CONNECTED - NEW FOUND GLORY

Have you ever wondered who you are at a certain point in time? Right now, I'm trying to figure that out. I know I'm not the same person I was about a year ago. Much has changed, yet it's still me.

As I was sitting having coffee with a friend of mine, I was getting to learn so much about her. She seemed to have a firm grasp of who she was. I, on the other hand, couldn't say much about myself. When I talked about my life it only revolved around my band and music. There has got to be more to me.

Don't worry. I'm not going emo on you guys. It's been pretty good for me these past few months. My introspection is more of a self-improvement issue. I've been wondering if I'm being all I can be.

TITLE: THIS IS WHO WE ARE - HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS

What a blast! We spent our Halloween this year at Capone's (where else?). It was so good to see a lot of people who were game at having fun, all coming in different costumes. You could tell a lot of them really spent and put effort into their look. Amazing!

This year I went as a Metro Manila Aide (I know some of you have seen me in the uniform before), with the small white towel and all. Tito went as a Chinese kung-fu dude, and Jay as Silent Bob. I have to say though, Angela looked absolutely fantastic! She came as a school girl (naughty?) with pigtails and all. As you can imagine, she was getting a lot of stares (even from women). Also of special note is Caco. His costume was just...disturbing, and not for the reasons you'd think. you just have to see it to get what I mean. Tito has some pictures on his Multiply. Check them out.

Another cool thing that night was seeing friends I haven't seen or hung out with in ages. Margie made a rare appearance along with Debbie and Chris. Monique was there; Aimee, Deng, JP, Tiger and the other doctor friends were there too.

There were a few moments of frustration (all band related) but the people I was with just made me feel much better. Overall the night was just fun. I wish even more people came in costume. Now I have to figure out what I'm going to come as next year. Fun!

TITLE: HALLOWEEN - THE DAVE MATTHEWS BAND